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Name: jenny
Country: United States
State: California
Gender: Female
Interests: pretty things
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Member Since:
12/21/2004
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| So I'm all done. All six classes and all 23 units. I'm nervous to see if I passed all of them. I didn't realize that I had 5 finals and 1 paper due within 3 days. Crazy. But if I passed all those classes, I'll be done and a new page in my life will start. This week I'm planning on chilling until my graduation party. After then will be me pumping out the most difficult project ever: branding myself. I'm going to have to evaluate, brainstorm, and visually present myself in a logo and layout. I'm going to have to work on resumes, cover letters, and my portfolio. I want to have mine bounded in a hard cover book. I'll see how that works out. Still need to look into companies to apply for and then I'll be ready to put myself out in the "real world".
Tomorrow's my so-called special day. I'm already bummed out and wish I could reschedule. I originally had no plans for tomorrow until Stephanie asked me if I wanted to go to Napa. I've been wanting to go for a while as I hear that it's gorgeous. I don't drink alcohol, but I thought it would be fun to go wine tasting anyways. Napa's know for its cute restaurants right? Well, that was my plan to try that too. But I guess after phone calls upon phone calls, that plan was cancelled.
Why have things become like this? I've been stressed, I've been mad, and now I'm tired. I need to get myself a cat and take a nap in the warm sun with it. That's probably what I want to do the most..
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| Fourth year sucks. I've been so busy I"ve been constantly in a state of stress, fatigue, and moodiness. I need 21 units to graduate. I'm taking 23. Six classes is crazy. I've never heard of anyone who took so many classes. And starting now the madness has started. I've got an entire campaign I need to build and design to hopefully be used by the Women's Center on campus. We've got events upon events coming up for Pixel all to be completed by the end of May. I gave up on portfolio day. I simply don't have the time nor the energy to build my entire portfolio within 3 weeks. There are times at 6:30am where I want to just pull out all my hair and jump off our balcony. Brain deadness is deadly. I've felt times when I feel dizzy or where my hand has gone numb and it sucks.When you're looking at the clock and thinking about how the project's due in 2,3 hours and it still needs to be printed, cut, and mounted. Some times I really wish I chose a different road to follow. Something less stressful. But then I think harder and realize that this is all I've got. Without creative thought, I think I'd be more of a robot than human.
It's about time I need to start looking for jobs and I have been thinking about going into advertisement over design. When I worked at WE last summer I was pretty hyped up about the work. Although there was an increditably quick turn around rate, things were put out on the street blown up more that 100% of what they looked on screen. It's great to see amazing work turn around over night. It also sucks for those of us who worked on it. I had the worst dark eye circles when I was in Hong Kong but I think I had the most fun working on projects. I have no clue if it's because I was only there for 2.5 months and that my incentive was to get my work out on the street. I can't say how I'd love that job long term. I hated the hours. I'm hoping jobs in the U.S. would be better.
I want a cat. I find myself thinking about Mao when I'm stressed. I realized that cats have magical powers to soothe and relieve stress. I miss sharing my chair. And even though he'd be sleeping behind me, he'd still be there. According to the Qi Gong master, Mao has a long life and that he'll come back to find us. I hope he comes soon.
I hate how unproductive I become when I'm stressed. I need stress management!
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| There's a chance we'll get a new mao! Waiting for the right time... Cat Fancier's Shows are coming up and my mom's aerobic's teacher knows someone who foster homes kittens!
Nothing beats sleeping with a mao! Hahah Thumper came to sleep with me over Jeff!! >=D
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| I feel so alone. I feel so sad. I feel so stressed. And the only one who would notice isn't here anymore. How am I supposed to be okay without you?
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